I'm feeling it. Mostly from work. If I had something to balance it out, I could handle it better, but I'm always too tired to do anything but use the
internet and sometimes play a videogame. I'll try to get out of the house a little on Wednesday now that I know the car's been looked at. I'm just
terrified of the future. I have to try to move up in this company or move on and I have to do it fucking soon before I end up 40 years old with the same job
and about the same salary.
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Did get out of the house and that helped a little. Going to work has me so stressed out that I'm getting more headaches and feeling physically worse than
ever. I basically get my job done by staying angry. Otherwise I get depressed and/or have no energy.
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Good luck to you friend. Depression + Sucky Job ain't no good combination, that's for sure.
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Posts: 81 (05/01/08 11:03 PM) Forum Owner
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Not getting fired was such a shock that I'm not really sure how I'm feeling anymore. The thought of being jobless can be terrifying but I think it
surprised me how much I was hoping it would happen. I still think it's inevitable, but that I bought myself some more time.
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Posts: 81 (05/10/08 02:01 AM) Forum Owner
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I'm trying to go back to eating healthy and exercising and all that. I lost my motivation big time with everything that's been going on. But if I keep
taking the attitude of waiting until things get better at work before I do anything in my personal life, then nothing is ever going to get done.
I'm in a really awful state right now, this is about as bad as I've felt. I go to work and I spend 6 hours thinking about what's going to go wrong at work the next day, and I go to bed. If I play videogames, it helps a lot. Much more than books, TV or movies, I guess because you need to keep more of your attention on the game than those things. I dunno. I have Wednesdays and Thursdays off. Wednesday is the only really good day of the week for me. Thursday morning is alright, but in the afternoon and evening the anxiety and depression comes back even stronger than on a normal night. I decided to take an early vacation the week after next. This means I won't have any break in fall, but that's become a miserable time of year for me anyway. Maybe being off in a nice month like May will do me a little good. |
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Posts: 81 (05/31/08 12:50 AM) Forum Owner
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God, I can almost never get through a full day there now without a severe headache. I don't know if they are migraines or not, they don't seem exactly
like the descriptions of migraines I read online. Migraine medicine does work, though. Except for today. Well, maybe it worked well enough to at least spare me
the nausea. But it also has caffeine and maybe I had too much because my hands got shaky.
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